Prep phase mark!

Today, for the first time, I vomited. Today was leg day. During my squat session, a stranger came and asked for sharing the squat rack I'm using with him. I agreed. And he was kind enough to spot me during my turn. Spotter is a person who will spot and support you if somehow you fail to lift the weight or in dangerous position. Spotter can be anyone who knows how to perform an exercise correctly.

For sure, I've never had any gym partner before this with me. I was and am a loner, which means I'd like to get things done by myself. But it's not that I'm ignorant of teamwork dynamics. It's just, I opt to be alone. I know when to ask for help and advice. Somehow, being with him(the stranger) today made me want to push myself harder.

I asked him to load another weight plates to the bar. I really pushed myself today, and during the session, I kept imagining how failed I had become in terms of control and lifestyle, that had led to an unhealthy lifestyle and physical. Although I was doing better than I was, the picture of my failure kept fueling me to push harder, to the extent I was disgusted by my past failures. Adding to it was the severe setback of heavy squat, known as the king of exercise. I felt so disgusted, remorseful, and regret at that time. I don't know why I'd get so emotional, apart from the fact that I fueled myself to push my limit.

Two minutes later, I rushed to the toilet, vomited, and felt so much relief! It was totally relieving! It was a psychological pleasure. Have you ever felt the relief after Subh during Ramadhan after you spend the whole night crying? Same, different aspect.

And I learned a lot from that stranger, an old timer, who gave me a lot of advice doing proper forms of leg exercises. Thanks.

There we go. Last week of the prep phase. I am now doing a 12 week strength program by B.U.F.F Dudes. It's an online program. Now week three. Just want to see how significant will I improve after finishing the 12 week programs.